accepting illness

i have a mental illness.

i am sick
the thoughts i have, they may not be accurate.
the things i see, for the most part arent real
the things i feel, usually arent there either
the things i hear, probably are not there.

i have to take medication to be able to live a somewhat "normal" life.
if i dont take it, i may feel good for a while.
hell, i may feel fantastic!

but i will get sick again.   SICK.
i have a brain disorder.

i have an illness.

i will still struggle.

i will still have to ask,
to know whats real and whats not.
to get through each day.
to maintain my independence

i will always have to fight.
to remain vigilant.
to remain strong

i will have weeks where i want to give up,
give in,
bury my head
or not move at all.

i will have weeks where i am hostile,
angry,
argumentative,
and irritable.

i will have weeks where i am so very happy
energetic,
bubbly
productive.

i need to take medications to even me out
i am sick.

i have a mental illness.
i need to remember this

i am sick.
i have a brain disorder


and. thats. ok.


i am not JUST a mentally ill person.
i am not a label.

i am many shades of awesome

i am a warrior.
a fighter.
an artist
a writer
an animal guardian
a mediator
dedicated

I am me.





i am a  survivor