you say crazy like it's a bad thing: A Process, not Perfection

Even though i've mostly left the eating disorder part of my illness rolling miles behind me in the dust, i still follow Kati Morton, who specializes in various eating disorders. Shes got some good advice, and not just on eating habits, but on all mental health maladies.

One of my favorite quotes from her, and one of the most helpful, is "Recovery is a Process, not Perfection."

shes got a lot of other cool advice too, and along with my therapist, and support worker, and my own work, i can do this. that doesnt mean things are always going to be 100%. and thats OK.

even if i only do one thing today, i have to remember im doing the best i can, and that i have to learn to listen to my inner voice and not the ones that torment me.

"we have to fight back....." And fight i must. my life depends on it.

today was the start of a new day. My support worker and i cleaned. We may not have got to everything. but we worked on things. A process. even if i just do one thing tomorrow, thats a step. and if im not able to do anything, thats ok too.

It also brings me back to focusing on what im thankful for. So many people never get the help they so desperately need. either due to shortages or not reaching out. Im one of the lucky ones. Im lucky that i have people who are willing to help. People who dive right into a sink of dirty dishes because they want to make a difference.

So im thankful i have people in my life who are committed to helping me on my path to recovery.

Im still not out of the woods, but im trying to take steps to keep myself safe. Its not easy. and even less so when i have things tormenting me and driving me to the brink. But i have to try. I HAVE to.

i just need to remember, this too shall pass.