These are a few of my favorite things...

tonight i got nothing

im in serious crises mode.

i could list everything that is going on, but thats not overly helpful.

when im grasping at air all i have are jellybeans.
jellybeans?

i have this stash of halloween candy. i always buy it when it comes on sale. i get low blood sugar fairly frequently and its handy to have and cart around.
im particularly fond of gourmet jelly beans.  aside from the watermelon flavored ones, which i have obvious betrayal issues with.

my point is, im sitting here, and i reached for this bag of jellybeans.  they took my focus off things, even though it was just for a moment.
sometimes we have to reach out and grasp anything, no matter how small.    now im not condoning the use of food to cope, that wasnt my point.  that is another matter entirely.

i could have done any number of things.  a hot bath, a walk, music.  but in that moment, it was jelly beans.
they brought me back to myself.  long enough that i could reach out for more support.

so this left me thinking about what else makes me happy. and what can i use as a go to when i need a distraction
and so.  in no particular order, here they be:

*the smell of parrot feathers
*the texture of tree bark over my palms
*hot sand on my feet and hands
*warm sun on my back
*the sound of water lapping at the shore
*the first cup of coffee in the morning
*cherry cheesecake
*disney cartoons
*building parrot toys
*listening to appropriate music
*watching youtube clips (when able)
*walking in the woods, listening to the sounds of the forest
*snuggling with Kramer
*watching my fish swim around
*Le awesome jelly beans
*drooly naps


for now, my body is wanting to go to bed.  so im going to listen to it. hopefully get some sleep.
i want out so bad.  but there is always tomorrow.