sometimes, in the act of recovery, we take things so seriously. we have a task and we aim to meet it. we forget about all the in between.
my intention was to just get my hair cut. simple. cut and come home.
but i decided to do something. i went shopping.
i picked out my elf costume for the fire hall party that im doing for the kids. ( I still dont know what im thinking but we will see anyway)
i bought some of my favorite jelly beans.. the gourmet kind.
I ate food at a restaurant
and i witnessed the most beautiful sky ever. i truly believe heaven was smiling down upon me
while im still focused on recovery, im not focused on it. and thats the point. im simply being. whatever that entails. good, bad, or otherwise.
I am not "recovery". I am me, in all my glory.
You know... reading your entry makes me wonder if I shouldn't quit being such an introvert and get outside more to experience life more.
ReplyDeleteI'm not really a social introvert, but just someone who doesn't leave the house too often or rather, I'm stuck in the tunnel vision of going from place to place instead of looking at everything around me.
im glad my entry was sort of enlightening for you. thats why i write them. so others can maybe get something from them. i talk openly about things so people dont feel so alone.
DeleteHey, another thing for you.
ReplyDeleteTo follow another person's blog, you need to go the blogger dashboard, then click on the "Add" button under the reading list.
Then you can type in the URL there.
http://jaredstrider.blogspot.com/
good to know. let me see if i can get this technologically impaired brain to get that right ;)
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