feeling miserable? Let loose!

I slept like a baby last night, yet, despite that, woke up feeling like shit.  Not only was i immediately hit with, " Do i really have to fight with things again today?!", but the last 3 mornings I've been blessed with vomiting and  an upset stomach.
my head hurt, my legs were shaking and my demons were in fine form ready to terrorize me as soon as i opened my eyes.
my initial reaction was to reach for the phone, and call in sick
but i didnt.

why?
I have always been a fighter.  there are certainly days i need my down time.  days that a call in to work is warranted.  but i had a few days off and it was time to get back on the proverbial bike before fear kept me off forever.

so i went to work.  it was hard, but i tried to have fun.

how do you make work fun?

my coworker and i played ringalo pong (which consisted of me stuffing a paper cup in my shirt and catching said ringalos.

we watched a young coworker "twerk" to some random song.

the list goes on, but my point is, when i look back on today, im not going to remember much of the crappy stuff.  im going to remember the silly things we did today.  and the crumbs in my bra that im still fishing out.

im still struggling.  but im holding on to the hope that it will get better.  and while im waiting, im doing a few little things to try and make the shift.
one of the things i have to constantly remind myself is to take my meds.  even if i they make me feel bad about taking them.

and if i have to hold a twerking contest with a young coworker to make me smile, then i will.  even if it seems foolish.

laughter is life.